Reality Check

It’s one thing to start reorganizing and packing things away, but last weekend I had my first real reality check. I gave away the crib. It would have happened eventually, but not for at least another year if we weren’t moving into a camper.

My heart was heavy as Papa took apart the crib and I replaced it with the playpen. And when my cousin put it in their car it was like a neon sign flashing in my face – “no going back now!” Not that we can change what is happening. Without a job there can be no mortgage, but it is only by God’s grace that we have been able to keep the bills paid for the past three months and hopeful thinking is not going to pay the mortgage next month.

Papa’s boss (or should I say, ex-boss?) calls every week or two to check in and see how we’re doing. He really is a such a great guy, but unfortunately the company is still having a hard time keeping their smaller crew busy (local code enforement says requests for building permits is only 15% of what it was last year). When Papa told him that we’re doing great and outfitting our camper to move in two months or less, he responded by saying how wonderful it is that we have such positive attitudes.

The reality is, that when push comes to shove, we don’t have a choice. We have to move. Just recognizing that thought of, “what if we didn’t want to move?” kind of hit me differently this week. If we didn’t want to start a homestead, this would really stink!! Yet, as Papa told his ex-boss, we are trying to use this situation to our advantage in the end. It will be very interesting to see how it all plays out (interesting has become a common word around here), but we are very grateful that this has not taken us by surprise because now we can look forward to a brighter future, and not a depressing and troubled one. Perception can be a beautiful thing!

Moving from our cozy village into an off-grid camper that with no neighbors close by will by no means be easy, and something things I’m trying not too think about too much (like no more long showers), but I’m also excited to see where this journey will take us.

All that to say, we are committed. We have the camper and a place to put it, Papa is building the greenhouses, and I’m getting ready for our big Memorial Day yard sale. There really is no going back, but we’re doing our best to stay ahead of this thing, not to let it overtake us. We’re in it together, through thick and thin, keepin’ our chins up, and hopefully encouraging others that, come hard times, they can thrive too.

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One response to “Reality Check

  1. So courageous and inspirational….

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